just a little rant and a little bit of stuff

I have been trying to get into physical therapy school, it is a very difficult school to get into anywhere, especially in johnson city, which is where I really want to go, basically a 4.0 is required with a little 'political pull' and knowing the right people, as with anything competitive in this world. I am going to school right now for no reason except for just being there, a drain on my bank account and I am starting to not apply myself in school. I can go to a PTA (physical therapy assistant) program which will take 2 years at a community college for more than half the price of ETSU. I will be happy being a PTA I still help people and am in the same enviroment as a PT, just making about 10,000 less a year. I would rather be on the road to a career than just be in school, or hoping to get into a grad school I may never get into 50,000 a year is pretty good, especially if I love my job! and I can still go to grad school after a couple years of being an established pta it might even better my chances. Thing is....I feel like a major disappointment to my parents and everyone, my dad even said he would be disappointed :-( I thought parents wanted what was best for their kids, aka happiness, even if I'm a trash collector. I would think your daugther graduating with a bachelors with a 3.82, high school 2nd in her class and an associates, and then being a PTA would be an outstanding thing to tell your friends, espeically when you didn't even graduate high school. Maybe I should just quit school all together and work as a mcdonald manager as long as my dad is disapponted in me, might as well make it worth it. Sorry :-(

Glory in the Flower

What though the radiance which was once so bright
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;
In the primal sympathy
Which haivng been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death;
In years that will bring the philosophic mind.
- William Wordsworth

Oh how this helps, even after so long.